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There is so much going on within him as he stares at Echidna, and it feels like his insides had gotten turned inside out. All of it was playing on repeat inside his mind, and there was so much conflict between the memories and his own feelings. All of it. It hurts and he wants to scream. His hands slide up to grip the sides of his head, his hair. He closed his eyes tightly, his breathing not much more than dragged out gasps of air, like he was choking on it. He had never once imagined what he had just learned. Not for an instant was that how he had seen any of it, and it was destroying something, some pieces of him to know what she had thought of him. All this time, and this was what it was?

And they were suppose to be honest with one another, but some of those memories told him that it just wasn't so. She'd hidden things, she'd blamed him. He opened his eyes and the tears began to fall in silent rivers down his cheeks. "You blamed me. The whole time." There was something shattered in his tone, and then there was something colder in his expression. "It's good you're sterile." He sneered, pouring his pain into the biting words. "Not that it made any difference when you were fucking Cash. When we'd decided to run away together, and be honest. I made myself sterile for you, left all those eggs behind and you blame me?" He looked downright venomous right now.

Her words are barely listened to, because he doesn't know if he can trust any of it, not if she'd been lying to him about how she felt all along. "If I am hell to you, good." But he didn't look happy about it at all, he looked downright miserable. Her words about leaving if she wanted him to gets a guttural; "I'm not running." Stubborn words. And then his gaze found an all too sharp rock and he picked it up, cut it right across his wrist and held it out to her, dropping the rock. "Take what you fucking want; only fair, right?" And he's starting to feel numb about it all, but he wasn't going to ignore this, wasn't going to run from it. That had always been one of his problems before, but it wouldn't be right now.