Time here had wandered by much faster than I had imagined it would. Two years had passed since I'd bonded with Navarre, and same time span had passed since I'd seen my fated. I felt disjointed, unwelcome. It was almost as if my soul had begun to tear into pieces. I found myself wandering the freelands in the shadows. Hiding every chance I could. If only momma could see me now, she'd be devastated to see her bright bubbly child so... broken. I didn't know what to do. I needed something. I felt as if this world had shown me what i could have, and then ripped it from me so quickly I didn't get a chance to adjust to loosing it.

I wondered if he was still around, my mind going back to him talking of Diveen, and knowing someone there, but I was too scared, too unsure of myself to even want to try to find that land. I was lost. I had always imagined once I found my Kānāwai, that I'd feel secured in my life. Having that ripped from me so suddenly was really hard to deal with.

Navarre had not been in my life long, but he'd made an impact on me. The way I had automatically felt toward him was unlike any feeling I had ever had in my life. Such a strong sense of righteousness, of being whole, for once. But I never knew what to make of it. And then he was gone. Maybe I'd done something wrong, Maybe I'd pushed him away. I mean, I had no idea what to do with myself in a situation like that so it was extremely likely.

Wandering the grotto in the early hours of dawn as the light was peeking over the rocks, it was a peaceful setting, one that I could feel my heart and soul easing and settling, for once. But it didn't make me feel any better. I felt sullen and alone, and I was done with it.