She felt bad for not finding a chance to get back to Beltran and let him know what was going on. After their, well she would call it an experimental escapade, she knew fairly quickly she was expecting. The changes came what felt very fast and very sudden. The hunger, the tiredness followed by other quirky things that had come along with it. The first thing on her mind though was she wanted them to be born in a safe place. Her mother wasn’t doing well, but not badly, not for her age, so Panik had returned to Spirane, set up a brand new den close by to her mothers and simply rode out the pregnancy in peace. Her mother had given her the blessing to go, Panik felt her mother deserved the blessing of knowing she had more grandchildren out there to know her before she went. Perhaps it wouldn’t be long, but they could put a name to the face, and Panik wanted nothing more than for them to have a memory of her, even if it was blurry or short, she wanted them to have something.

She wasn’t really thinking when she had them. It had been illogical and a bit hypocritical considering what she had said to her brother the previous year… but Panik didn’t do it with ill intent to Beltran… eventually she would find him and tell him about the pups they had together, but friends was strictly the way she wanted to stay with the brute she had met. She didn’t expect him to help her either, after all, she used him a bit, and there was a little guilt for that, but if he wanted to be around she would happily accept and let him have that.

However today she pushed those thoughts aside. She knew for a few days it was getting close, but the first pains had been harsh and unexpected. Well not unexpected, but she heard stories but experiencing it was a completely different thing. Her boy had taken a while, Faust… she decided to name him. He took so much after his grandmother’s side it really pleased her seeing how she took so much after her own father. She had cleaned him up and even had some time to bond before the girl, Terra, came along to join him. She had been much easier, and quicker, her smaller size very likely was part of it. She was just so much smaller than him, though she was healthy and clearly had a voice and strength behind her. Everything seemed to be fine though. Both moving, feeding and otherwise seeming healthy. Panik herself felt the relief and adrenaline pumping through her with its completion, though there was still some lasting pain, and she was tired, but she also felt a great pride.

Curling around them she mostly felt a warmth flow through her, her ears moved about and she simply enjoyed her first moments with her first, and likely only litter of children. It couldn’t have been any better for her.