Leaving my children, what was left of them, in Taviora was hard enough to do that I had stopped a few times at the border before growling to myself. Of all the packs, Taviora was one of the most well protected. Zelda had a loyal bunch and quite a BUNCH. They were everywhere but it made me nervous. I had lost so much in so little time that I wasn't sure I wanted to trust fate anymore. It had always led me wrong. Still, I left, Perun and Idrisa knowing that I would be back soon. I had to find my mate. Figure out what was happening, when we would be getting back my son and daughter.

Yet somehow, I find myself being tugged along a tether and further away from where I had intended to look. In the southwest was Iromar. I desperately itched to go there and offer myself in exchange for my children. Aithne had done her best to protect us as pups but I seemed doomed to failure on every level. I couldn't take back Iromar when Aranck had taken it and I couldn't keep Asteraia when I had it. What was left for me to do but save my children? I suppose I could retire from such a life once I had done that. Find a new purpose, another thing to fail at.

The bitterness in me grew each passing day and it was hard to hide it from my pups. No doubt Orb could feel it wherever he was and I felt bad because I wasn't sure where Eclipse had gotten to. It was strange knowing some of her pups were that of my imprint's but I had decided it was meant to be. That I was supposed to protect them. Ha, what a bang up job I did. I don't even realize I am heading towards him until I spy him at a distance in the fields and I blink in surprise before glancing around, coming to an abrupt stop. How the hell had I gotten here?

"Diesel?" I say, confused. Confused about everything. My world was breaking down and now I was having memory gaps. What if I turned out like him? With multiple personalities? "What are you doing here?" What am I doing here, I really meant, but I stand stupidly staring at him.