At Leisure Lake the sun is always shining and only a few stray clouds roam the open sky; paradise is the one word that really describes it. This beautiful lake is clean and refreshing, the very best place to swim and fish. Pups are known to play here while older wolves watch at the side, engaged in their own activities.
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Posted on June 2, 2018 at 06:00:15 PM by castiel
i'll be your protector __________________________________________ Crippling emotions wrought themselves all throughout the shadow caped companion, leaving unsteady limbs and paws quaking. A tremulous shiver rippled downwards through a stiff spine, making it come off as though he was trembling on his paws. Which to some extent held true, because the queasy unease that filled his stomach made him simultaneously want to vomit and run away. Bubbling within that anxiousness, was a seething rage. That unbridled temper to which he fell susceptible to in times where emotions ran wild and unchecked. Castiel had never unleashed it upon Tiresias, because the limber stilted hessian imbued a feathery light calmness and subtle warmth in him. But it was also him now that caused this restless fear, creating a conflict of interest. This in turn released confusion into the mixture, making it harder to containing that hidden rage. At first it had only been shame for himself that muddied the clear picture in his head, but then as he managed to blatantly proffer up white lies instead of the truth, the surface blurred leaving him blind to what things might come from Tiresias. Without a clear conscious Castiel could not think or be perceptive to Reece. Being in dark emotionally left Castiel the only option his irrational brain could think of, and that was the worst scenario possible. Which didn’t seem far from the truth. A soft whimper issued forth from Tiresias, quieting Castiel, as it slowly turned to a chuckle. A tired and uneasy smile pulled ever so slightly at his lips as Tiresias spoke, You cannot rid yourself of me that easily. A there was that soft, cool pressure on his shoulder again. The waters of his mind seemed to clear just slightly. It seemed that maybe he would make it through this with no fear of retribution. No questions that would call forth Cas’ secret, because the possibilities were endless if Tiresias figured him out. Most of which would end badly for them, for Castiel most of all. For Tiresias, if his thoughts and ideas about Castiel fractured and splintered maybe he wouldn’t fear losing Cas. He could move on without him, but this was not true for him. Castiel was bonded to Tiresias, in a way that not even he seemed to fully understand. At first, he thought it was an ability he possessed that could apply to anyone, but he had figured out eventually that this was not true. Tiresias was the only one who seemed to elicit the warmth and charming sensation that cooled Castiel’s temper. More than that though, Reece was all that Cas had left. Vlad knew nothing of Cas’ return or existence, for all he knew Cas was living in blissful ignorance to the change and happily with their parents. How wrong and twisted this situation had become now. The mess that Cas had somehow created in these drifting months, all because he refused to open up the past and revisit those old memories and wolves that existed in them. Castiel had placed on bets on Tiresias and their little life together, one could argue that he practically existed for Tiresias. It wasn’t hard to notice that Cas never ventured from the beach or left Tiresias alone. When he had first felt Tiresias’ presence Cas had promised himself not to let it get to his heart. He would not open up that wound again. Love had no place in his world, especially not when there was no exhibited signs from Tiresias of interest. And although it had never been explicitly stated, Tiresias showed no signs of a likening for males. Cas had shoved aside all thoughts or hope of anything. Tiresias meant everything to Castiel and he would give up everything to stay at his side, if only as a guardian and friend. No matter how much this thought would eventually destroy the glacial eyed tempest, he would do it for Tiresias. He would do anything, but now it seemed he had put everything on line and he was losing it all. An empty void opened as Tiresias retracted from Cas, and the subtle warmth he induced naturally was fleeting, as a deep set winter seemed to unfurl within him. Rich emerald orbs were closed and turned away from Cas, inciting a trembling whimper. Tiresias, please don’t… but soft hesitant lyrics cut him off, Was this… Partner of yours… Castiel I need to know if it was a brute or femme… And a mate or a friend. Rippled oceans seemed to freeze, wide eyed, Castiel felt as if glass shards had pierced clean through his heart and soul. His mouth opened but silence hung heavy on his tongue. Knowing he could no longer evade the truth or the past. The weakness of his vocals would have given him away, even if Reece couldn’t read it in his body language. His name was Merlo… And we were only friends at first, but we meant more to each other than that. I loved him… Castiel’s voice cracked, and he hardly whispered the last phrase, because he was reminded of how much pain loving had caused him. I would do anything for you Tiresias, give you the world, if I could. I can’t change who I am, though… I understand if that’s not how you feel and I’ll do whatever you want. In that moment, Castiel knew that if Tiresias had screamed at him to get away, to leave forever that he probably would have. If it meant Tiresias would be happy, then Cas would have done it. In his blinded, emotional stupor Castiel did not realize that he loved Reece then, but it still showed. Even if Castiel knew the heart wrenching and agonizing split that would divide his heart, if he split himself from Tiresias, he would have done it. A wilted whine drifted from his maw, so unsure of how he had managed to ruin everything so quickly. Fearing the reaction he was going to receive Cas ducked his head, waiting to hear paw steps walk away from him or a voice telling him to rid himself from Tiresias’ life. __________________________________________ i'll be your guardian angel ~ Castiel ~ Brother to Vladimir ~ Lost Heir ~ Haunted ~ Alesana ~ |
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BLIND FAITH- By Tiresias June 6, 2018 at 05:06:27 PM
i'll watch over you - By castiel June 18, 2018 at 03:14:32 PM
BLIND FAITH- By Tiresias June 19, 2018 at 11:14:12 PM
i'll watch over you - By castiel July 17, 2018 at 03:43:20 AM
BLIND FAITH- By Tiresias August 5, 2018 at 08:25:31 PM
i'll watch over you - By castiel September 4, 2018 at 12:34:56 PM
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