She knew I would never hurt her. I had protected Archana and Whisper as much as I was able to upon our capture in Iromar those seasons ago. It was obvious that I devoted my protections to my family, even if I had been torn between my love for them and my desire to stretch my legs. It is a strange comfort to have her with me, as if she had sensed my aimlessness and had come to give me purpose and guidance. My sister often times echoed my opinions but we were both young and in the future, who knew how they would change?

I give a sort of choked laugh at her assessment of father. It was true. No matter what a wolf did, Hal could forgive them if they were blood. I'll bet mom was red in the face when he told her what I said if Zelda hadn't already. Of our parents, mother was the one to hold a grudge the longest. It was no wonder Archana had such a temper, I think. "I don't know when. Not yet. I don't think I'm ready yet but one day I will be and when I have it I won't let it go." My ears fold back as I bare my fangs, a furious look on my face.

She pleads to help me and I feel relieved. I am glad she wants to go with me because I am not sure I could walk that path alone, not now, not after all I had given up to be myself. Her next words make me thoughtful. I was stronger wasn't I? My body was healthy, with strength lining my shoulders, chest, and hips. Blackthorne had taught me a few things and even if I hadn't learned everything there was to know, at least I had a start. "I've never killed. Not a wolf, you know," I say very softly, because I need her to know. "But I did watch. As he did things to other wolves. But not kill." I had not witnessed a death, only various other torture things.

Yet I did not feel... shame. Just a sort of quiet nonchalance that was a bit disturbing really. I turn my upper body towards her, legs leaning to the side as I did so. "I'll teach you, Idrisa. I don't think I could do it by myself anyways." I offer a weary smile to her. "But we can't go back, not to mom or dad. It is just us now, okay? We might have to do some things that are unforgivable. Can you do it?"