Fear was a feeling that was not new to the femme. But this type of fear…this was new. It was constant and extreme, more like terror. Normally she had a safe place to go, to hide and escape from the fear. But it seemed that that was no longer the case. She may not have had true friends before, but she hadn’t felt trapped like she did now. Shilo didn’t know why she felt compelled to stay with Perdere, but she did. She had never had a crush on another, didn’t realize that that’s what had happened with him. Despite the way they had come to be together, despite the fact that he initially threatened to kill and torture her, she had grown fond of him. Had grown to trust him and enjoy being around him. After the male realized she was not going to run away, more like she couldn’t, then he was not always so cruel in his words to her. At first it had been a tactic to keep her tied to him, a mental leash of sorts. But after enough time, Shilo didn’t need any sort of leash to keep her near Perdere. She wanted to be with him. That was the only reason that she had stayed within this evil and insane pack.

But that was where the kalak found herself. Stuck in this pack where most of the wolves wanted to kill her and eat her. Eat her! She couldn’t believe that this was what she had gotten herself into. It was a miracle that she had survived the first meeting. It still made her sick to her stomach to relive skinning the little creature. Even though it was a prey animal that she would eat, it felt wrong to do what she did. Sure she had killed the vole quickly, but it still wasn’t right to pull the skin off its face. But its what she had done in order to keep a place in this pack. But now she was going to do everything in her power to stay under the radar. She never wanted to see the alpha or the vampire or any of the other wolves that came here willingly again. The only wolf that she wanted to be near was Perdere. With a sigh the femme began to search him out. She was too afraid to actually call for him, worried that another wolf would find her instead. But she also knew if she stayed hidden away where she was that he may not find her. Not unless he wanted to.

The kalak found herself slowly meandering through the trees, stopping every once in a while to listen in case there were others close by. For now it seemed that she was the only one out here. Which was strange. Shilo would have thought with the warmer weather that more wolves would be out more frequently. But she wasn’t going to question it. She had purposefully chosen daytime as well so that she would have no chance of running into the vampire. She couldn’t bear to be around him again. She wasn’t sure who was worse, Draven or Sindicate. Did being a vampire make one evil? She wasn’t sure. But she didn’t care, she didn’t want to be anywhere near him. So far Shilo had been unable to find Perdere’s scent freshly anywhere she was looking. Perhaps she was staying too close to the small den she had made. But she was afraid to go too far away. Shilo knew that a den wasn’t a magical protection, but it felt like one. With a sigh she found some bushes to hide in, a whimper escaping her. All she could do was hope that he come across her before someone else did.

Picture and table credit to Casey!

//Shilo//Fae//Daughter of Shae and Caspian//Sister to Tiresias, Malina, and Rylan//Crith Thalmhainn//Young Adult//Violet//