The fear of being left alone with Sule’s responsibilities was terrifying. All the reasons he gave were valid ones, but maybe not the true reason he was second guessing taking this position. Haskuldr was a loner, always has been. He did once serve in a close family with his mother and his siblings when he was little, but as he grew, he become distant. A part of him wonders if this was because of his father. He watches in the distance as his half siblings speak to one another. None of them acknowledge his existence yet alone knows he even exists at all. The only reason Raksha knew was because he lives in the Arch. Mother once told him he met his father when he was born. Bjorn showed up to meet him, but he never came back again. Ysabel said there was tension between them, but Has could never forgive it.He vowed to never have so many children that he could never spend all the time in the world with them. Suleiman was blessed with the ability to have a good group of mares who stayed by his side. Seeing his children become easier with them all together like that, same with Solomon. But Has was not built to carry such a big burden. He could not handle such a big herd let alone handle talking to a girl he thought was pretty. He was better off alone with the sea. The ocean receives him no matter what he is feeling. No matter what he does or thinks or who he. It is just as salty every time he comes and it is always in the same place. Sule’s words echo in his mind and he nods.It had been his choice to accept the position when Sule asked. He had been shocked by the ask, actually. Has has never done anything for Suleiman to pick him, but just be…here. He hardly interacted with anyone and hardly anyone really knew who he was. Sule’s question causes a sigh to escape his dark lips. ”No, I don’t think I do.” Blue eyes rise to meet the taller stallion’s. ”If I do find someone to love I feel that will be all I can handle.” He was old enough now to realize his heart could only grow so big. The more mares he let in meant a bigger risk of getting hurt. ”Besides, with my social skills I don’t see me finding a mate anytime soon.” He chuckles lightly. Besides Eadez and Silka, he has not talked to any other females not in his family. He would need to meet others to actually find his one.Has lowers his head as his eyes fall to the ground. “When you picked me to be your second I honestly thought you were just being nice. Or that Solomon made you considering I am Ysabel’s son.” He smirks lightly at the thought. It sounds like something his mother might beg of Solomon to push him out of his shell. ”I am thankful for the opportunity, but I am just not the right fit for the job. I uh, don’t really like being in big crowds and I don’t know your herd. I’m sure another of your siblings is a better fit. More social than I.” To be a leader he must be okay with talking with strangers. Chasing out the intruders, checking on the herd members, and playing with the children. He has done none of those things in his years living in the Arch. He only swims in the sea.