This is my fantasy to live (Lyden) Posted on June 6, 2014 at 08:09:01 AM by Fantazer
How long had she waited now? Too long. It was time to seek out Lyden and to catch up. It was time to let him know that while she might have been hidden away from the view of others, that she had never sought to leave the Forest. She has not wandered to another stallion and she has never carried a child. She has not ever had an interest in carrying another stallion's kid. She has not been given the chance to carry Lyden's yet either, but she hopes that come the next season she might. There's a part of her that wants to be a mother. She's a little jealous of the other mares but not in general. More that they have kids and she does not. This is her own fault though and not that of anyone else's. This is something she must fix and not them.
"Lyden!" She misses him. Fantazer will not deny that and she wants to get to know him even better. She felt a connection to him before and he'd intrigued her. She misses that. She also wishes to know where Skylar was. She remembers the mention of that mare and her son but she has never met either of them. Now; their scents grow stale and she is confused by this. The grullo painted lady finds herself sweeping her eyes over the surrounding area by her. Lyden was around and he would come. Fantazer is sure of this.
Ears flick gently and she falls a little into thought. She thinks of the days she met him and the journey they had made here. She remembers the chill of the water falling off her freshly soaked coat. She smiles as she thinks of the inquiries about the Forest and what Lyden had told her. She remembers the exploration chat and then, she remembers having gone off on her own. Fantazer had hidden away into the trees and taken her sweet time in getting to know the Forest. She does feel bad now though that she has spent so much time away from a herd that was slowly growing fonder of one another. She is like an outsider and this must change. She wants to belong; she feels the need to want to get to know all of them. She wants the bonds that they seem to have. In time perhaps, but she must have patience and Fantazer realizes this.
"I'm sorry." It is a whisper and not really meant for the ears of another but were Lyden to hear then she hopes that he would understand that she had never meant to wander so far into the Forest and lose herself in her exploration. No, Fantazer had definitely never meant for that to happen at all. There's no going back and changing all of that though. There is only looking ahead and shaping the bonds that she wants now. She could do this. Replies: