Uncertain, naive, and most of the time foolish, all of these words described the perlino as of late. Fear overwhelmed her a majority of the time, it seemed as if just the few months of living on the Lost Islands, had frayed her nerves. With every conversation she had, the more she began to doubt herself, she was changing she could feel it. A paranoia was setting in, it all started with the challenge for her, bumping into Kasabian, and now the conversation she had with Dixon. She knew that she it was becoming difficult to trust anyone, even Lyden. He had apologized for his absence but it made her realize that the only one that she could depend on, was herself.

She focuses her attention on him, she raises her head, a look of confidence takes a grip on her face. "Lyden, I haven had a run of emotions over the past few weeks, yes, I have felt abandoned, used, and many others. I am trying to figure out who I am, it is a battle every single day just to keep the bit of sanity that I cling to." Kasabian had been the first to plant the seed of doubt, and it had been fed by Dixon. She swallows hard, she knew what was best for her. But it seemed every time that she made such a decision it was going to hurt another person that she cares for. As he wraps her with his neck, she can feel his warmth, but she feels numb. "What do you...." want from me, she finishes the sentence in her head, as he begins to speak.

She could hear him speaking, but the words were yet to sink in. He wanted her to rule next to him? She begins to shake, she wasn't ready for all of these decisions. She pulls away from his embrace, trekking backwards, fear, uncertainty all written across her delicate features. She couldn't even hardly take care of herself, and now he wanted her to help take care of the other horses in the herd? She stutters. "I'm scared... I need to think about this, it is such a big decision." She slowly pivots away from him, she knew that if she looked back she would stop, but she needed to think over what he had offered. To be a ruler, a queen next to Gandy, that would be the truest honour, but she was uncertain of her skills to take care of herself. She needed to find a place to think away from the Forest. She heads in the direction of the ocean, as her hooves carry her at a trot, she can feel her pain consuming her. Throwing her hooves into a reckless gallop she tears through the branches that threatened to hold her back.

The salty air enters her nostrils, she did not hesitate as she threw herself into the ocean. The momentum propelled her through the water. She didn't have a clue where she was going but she swam anyway.

ooc: please don't be mad, just give her a few days to think about it. I think this is where she leaves the Forest again to bump into Dixon and he shows her into the Lagoon. And thats where Lyden finds them, this is the only way that makes sense.