He knew that she didn't lash out because she was angry at him. He blamed it on the hormones and figured she was probably feeling bad about it any time it happened. He didn't put blame on her one bit. He would never push her for more pups. He would be happy just to have her all to himself. The fact that she'd given him children this spring was a miracle in itself and he wasn't planning on wasting it. He loved her more than anything. He didn't know of her fear or he would be quick to reassure her that it was nothing of the sort. Family wasn't a big staple for him because he'd never really had much of one growing up. He was alone most of the time so companionship and someone to trust was more important to him and he chose Malleah as his lifelong partner as long as she would choose him. Nothing else mattered. He liked that she seemed so protective over the child or children growing in her body. It was quite adorable in his opinion. He would do anything for her and he made sure she was always well fed. He got her weight back and maybe a little extra but he just figured it was all going to the baby so he didn't mind in the slightest. She was beautiful when she was pregnant. She had that glow.

She giggled and he grinned. He loved that sound. He could listen to it for hours. She teased him back, telling him his voice was handsome and that they could bring the place down around them if they sang together. He rolled his eyes teasingly.

"Well, geez, way to ruin it. If you sing then they'll be begging me to stop. My voice could never do yours justice. Angels would worship the voice of a goddess."

He gave her a playful wink, glad that it seemed to be taking some of the worry from her eyes. He hated to see her displeased about anything. When her thoughts went back to dark things, he distracted her with kisses this time, and though he saw the skepticism in her face, he could also see his words sinking in. Yes, he had come back for her and he would do so over and over again. She was his and he would never lose her again. Her eyes got a new look to them suddenly and she looked at him, suddenly so calm. She told him that she loved him and he felt his heart expand ten times. He was about to say it back but he could see there was more to say. Her voice was serious so he leaned in and listened, giving her his full attention. He couldn't help but chuckle though when she was done. He shook his head and looked at her, his own expression serious now.

"I always tell you that you are perfect, Malleah. I don't mean perfect through the eyes of the world or perrfect through the eyes of heaven or hell. I mean perfect through my eyes. You are not the only one with secrets, love. The last four years of my life were not spent in a holy land doing my good deeds for my heavenly homecoming. I am not proud or happy with a lot of things I've done but I can't take them back now. What's done is done. You could think of our child as a curse continuing or you could think of it as a new beginning, a way to stare again. We cannot undo our past but we can change the future for us and for our child."

He tried to read her expression, holding her gaze for a moment before he smiled. He could see the look in her eyes. He could see that she had a new strength, a new power that she did not have the first time he met her. He knew she was a changed wolf but that didn't have to be a bad thing. She still chose to be with him, so that was something. His eyes softened.

"I think that I could love you through hell and back. I could love you till the word love no longer has meaning and then I could love you through the new meaning. I could love you while death reined supreme around us and chaos unfolds. I could love you more than life itself, because I do. You could turn your back on everyone in this world including me and I would still love you. I would kill for you. I would die for you. I would live for you. What is love compared to what I feel for you, my heart?"
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