Pain. That was nearly all I felt these days. It was like a whole body sensation, the pain that radiated from my heart outward. Somedays, I didn't even want to wake up, the feeling was so intense. But in those few moments of in-between waking and sleep, I forgot she was gone, I forgot that I was all alone in this world. But then I'd wake up, and my heart would skip, and all of the emotions would come crashing back down into my heart.

How. How could anyone survive this? I hadn't thought about this when I was a kid, about loosing my mom. About loosing them all. But now it was clear, I had lost everyone I held dear to my heart. And now, the world was out to get me.

My eyes dropped, unable to hold Avery's gaze. I wasn't like this, I had never before worn my emotions on my sleeve like this, and it was an uncomfortable sensation. Knowing I was pouring out everything, whether I liked it or not. It was as if my heart over ruled my mind and everything spewed out, pretty much verbal vomit. I nodded, barely, as I listened to the words that came from Avery. She was right, but at the same time, I didn't know how to go on, at all.

When my head dropped to stare at the ground, I wasn't expecting Avery to come to me, nor did I flinch away when she lifts my head with her own nose. I blinked rapidly, trying to focus on her face, despite the emotions swirling in my eyes. I listened without making a sound. Her story wasn't quite like mine, except for her mother leaving. But she lost someone who had cared about her. I nodded gently.

"I always knew she'd go soon, because she was already so old when I was born, that I stuck to her instead of branching out to find friends, so when she passed, I had not a single soul left to lean on when she was gone. I don't know where to go from here, or how to to go about any of this, what so ever. What do I do now? I don't even know where to start." I sighed, unsure what else to say. I had no clue where to go anymore.