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▻ Aldora (x Lucerne); Oracle (x Ironclad) ◅
She wishes that she could view the world as this child does, so young and unreasonably cleansing in simply her presence. Tarot wonders idly what her child would have lived like if she had been her mother instead. Would she still have a violent father hunting revenge, sometimes careless of those immediately around him? Would she still be doomed to be raised by a mother who had a duty to the Lines over even her own children? Would she still be cursed with what Tarot had believed was a touch of the Ley magic in her.
She hadn’t had the level of intuition and foresight as she now experienced before the child’s conception - it could only mean the child would have that gift herself, she is so certain.
She calls the world good, pushing bad to the whimsy of circumstances - but she cannot be soothed so simply. "Do you fear what might become of your child?" She nods, silently, without hesitation. She does not know the why of her feelings regarding this, but she thinks there was only too many means for her to fail this child in showing it any of the good that Saoirse seemed to inherently believe in.
"I am a follower of the Ley Lines. I have not allowed myself to perform as a mother is presumed to do naturally because sometimes that meant walking in directions and to those who would not care for them or who would not permit them to follow..." It is a thorn in her side, but she seems resigned to her faith in that way martyrs seem to adopt at the pyre or guillotine or amphitheatre. She knows that it is ‘wrong’ and yet she knows it cannot be changed for her. Too ingrained, too strong a faith.
"The babe may not live, yet I cannot but bring it into the world to die." Her eyes turn to her companion with agony and yearning, "I follow a path that will do this child harm and I cannot see a way to save-- I have no sisters to claim them, I have no soul-match to steal me from the path I walk… It is because of me this child will live, it is because of me this child will die."
OF THE LOST ISLANDS WILDS
▻ 11 years - national show horse x morgan - sooty flaxen liver chestnut splash - 14.3 hh ◅