[ mhr gha SEER ah ]
Fell
▻ Sarama | Shvana | Mahākanha ◅
She gets it all out, anxious about stepping down only for the potential that there was of his disappointment in her. She had, she thought, been right to push and push through until she noticed someone strong enough that might overtake the role by natural order of things, but it was all that she could do. She had kept ti afloat. It was enough. She had given her son opportunity, it was enough. She had gotten closer to her husband, it was enough. All of her work had resulted in ‘enough’ and she sighs at the end of her verbose moment - fully aware that there was not going to be a verbal reply.
She wants to be a mother again, one that needed nothing but the embrace of her beloved, her thoughts on her child, and a passing affection for one or two of the family beyond. She does feel some regret that whoever might take the role next could be selfish with his time, but at the rate she had been going, she was going to turn to dust trying to keep his attentions to herself if she kept up for not another reason but his needing her. He sets his giant head atop hers and she realizes that the sudden whoosh out of her lungs makes her knees wobble and her heart lighten suddenly. "You can still come, though…" she says with her old brand of shyness, as if the lifting of the crown had also banked a bit of that biting fire she had shown before conceiving Maha. "I think I would struggle to sleep if you did not start the night beside me."
DESERTBORN QUEEN-MOTHER OF THE BAY
▻ five years - arabian x kathiawari - maximum chestnut sabino - 14.2 hh - rigel x varajakshi ◅