<i>Secure and safety - my dream...</i> (Keyna)

At the densest section of the forest, there is a brief clearing where a steady flow of water streams down the slippery stone staircase. The water here is cool and refreshing. Staircase Falls has been rumoured to be the place where reality is met by magic; where peaceful spirits dwell. They are rumoured to have healing powers that are used to help the desperately hurt, though no one has experienced this, except for, perhaps, Kaive.

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Secure and safety - my dream... (Keyna)
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Posted on February 27, 2012 at 04:11:41 PM by Yumna

They say there's no such place... as Paradise. Even if you search to the ends of the Earth, there's nothing there. No matter how far you walk, it's always the same road. It just goes on and on. But, in spite of that... Why am I so driven to find it? A voice calls to me... It says, 'Search... for Paradise'.
I turn my view up into the sky, the sun glimmering out of the white pillows. There is black bodies soaring in the high blue sea. How I would give to leap up and bounce from cloud to cloud in a endless and tireless journey - and - to be able to feel the breeze against my pelt, darting through the pillows of feathers. To be able to hunt - up above. I am no eagle - I shall never spread my wings and chase flying birds. My appendages are all I have to 'fly,' atleast it still gives a feeling of being free. There is nothing worse than being enclosed, I would rather be stabbed a million times - alone - than be closed up with no space. No hope. But of course, not in my state right now; I am pregnant and I wish no harm to come to my pups. And as a first time mother I am dreading everything, I have no safe and secure enviroment for my offspring and no father. No friends. Should, when they are born, I give them away? Would it be fair, not to me but to my dear pups? I am confused, Tor and Fenris have not given me a great start to life, ah well. Atleast I will have my pups someone to look up to me - I'll be their role model.
"Tears are the words the heart can't express." My youthful voices whispers and how true. I hardly speak, I haven't spoken to anything in a long time. Unless you count my unborn pups. At night, I weep, I weep for my family and myself. I sob prayers to Tor and Fenris for the well being of my pups... I loved Domino; when he was younger he was so sweet to me. We did many stupid things, adventorous things. But he was so fun, always dominant but weren't most brujo's? Most brujo's dreams were infact to become a alpha of a pack and I was never against his dominance. Ergh, never mind, the past is the past and it can hurt but you can either run from it or face it. Not that I am brave, I stay away from everyone... I don't want to be used and humiliated once again. And what if Domino comes back for me. I just hope he has changed, or he's died - I'd never wish death on anyone usually but I hate him. I really do; he gives wolves a bad name. And what does that make me? A evil wolf's mate - a slut... I wish I was back home, a pup, and Domino never existed. I wish I lived a normal life, a safe and secure life with what they call friends. It feels like Tor and Fenris hate me, or are they leading me up to a happy ending?

I lower my glare back to the floor, the rocks are damp by the thrusting of water. It is not surprising that the liquid is angry, it is usually like this. However there are some days when it is just calm, the angered souls become peaceful and the world seems to light up. The birds sing and swoop - but no. This was not a peaceful day, it is troublesome and the domain around me seems still. My breath is silent, a mistified fog releasing from my naze. The foliage crackling under my steady paws. The land seems so still, as if it is holding it's hoarse breath. Or perhaps it is thinking, this place seemed to be a thinking spot - but then again not. Surely thinking spots were supposed to be peaceful, angelic. Not some waterfall with crashing waves of anguish! Wolves differ, I suppose. But I can't be bothered to move some place else, Staircase Falls would have to do. For now.

I stare blanky into the murky depths of my reflection, maybe Domino can't be blamed. I am an ugly lass, with no self confidence - no adventorous spice anymore. Just a dull girl who doubts herself. If someone had been passing they would see a blank figure with no emotion, just a fatale. My ocean orbs stare back at me, the rippling of water breaking the image... I lift my cranium in a sharp action as a movement in my stomach errupts, it is bearable and I know that it isn't time. Not for atleast seven weeks - seven doubtful weeks. Forty-two days. Seems too long to me, I can't wait to see their little features, their eyes. I just can't wait to see them.
But there is one thing I am dreading - what if they turn out to be like Domino, or one of them becomes like him. I'd be shamed even greater, I just hope they only get the traits of his looks. Because, well, in my opinion he was fairly handsome as much as it pains me to say. Any how, I shall love them just the way they are - it is a mother's duty. And even if it means failing I shall try my hardest. No matter what the outcome is. No matter if I get killed, these pups are my piorities - my responsibility - and Tor shall gaurd them. I hope...

"Never give up, just keep hoping." I whisper softly to myself or perhaps my pups, too. Anyone watching will class me as insane, but what do I care. I love my pups, unborn or born. "I hope we'll be okay, but I hope mostly for your safety; my dears." My view is facing my stomach, "mummy's here, my dearies. I'll never leave you." These hushed lyrics are for my comfort mainly, what if I'm a dissapointment? Nevermind, no time to think about that. I do not live in the future but the present. I intake a breathe of freshness as I rise to walk on... But maybe I don't want to. No - I want to stay by the liquid. I want to be secure but I'm not! I'll never be! Perhaps I'm not meant to be... I don't know, maybe I'm being over dramatic...

Word Count:: 1093! My highest score! :D

Replies:

The unknown - By {M.E.R.C.E.R. F.R.E.Y.} February 27, 2012 at 11:17:16 PM
Every step you take, I'll be watchin' you. - By Yumna March 1, 2012 at 07:09:17 AM
The unknown FINISHED - By {M.E.R.C.E.R. F.R.E.Y.} March 1, 2012 at 01:06:15 PM
Every step you take, every move you make; I'll be watchin' you. - By Yumna March 4, 2012 at 10:53:27 AM
Keep on dreaming - By Mercer Frey March 18, 2012 at 01:03:26 PM

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