Amir
”There is no victory with no loss.”
He had been a father for me. Devil meant so much for me. Since the beginning, he showed himself different from me. He is strong, and even seeing the weak pup I had been trembling before his presence, he took me. He gave me shelter and took care of me, he gave me advices, he trained me. Every single night, I dedicated myself to be better, to be stronger. I used to go to the thickets to train, to run around the forest and among the trees. To improve my agility and strength. I never did this for myself I never thought of myself by doing this every night while I could be safe within my den. I did this, for my pack, for Devil. All I ever wanted, was to make him proud of me. So he could call me son someday. Was this too much to ask? I wonder if he ever knew this.
With a whimper, I told him how much it hurts in me. How badly it hurts in me to know that I screwed it all up. He had been the one to take care of me and train me and I have failed him! I failed and every night it hurts. I… do… I do want his forgiveness! But would he ever do that? Would he ever forgive me for betraying him? I never meant to do this! I never meant to do this to him. In a moment of deep fear and threat. I couldn’t be… Pressured. Would he ever call me his son? I wanted a chance, one more chance to show him that I can! A chance to fix everything. So there was a hope, a hope that someday I would be called his son.
Devil told me to let it hurt. That it should hurt. And grow stronger. But it does… It does grow stronger and stronger. It grows stronger each day. I don’t know how much more I could stand. I listen, wordless.
Then I ask him for one more chance. To show him nothing was wasted, that I care about him. Once more… For his forgiveness. If he… No! He must know! I listen as he speaks. He reveals that he gave up his crown. That he will be joining a Kane’s pack and that Heyel will be there too. My ears fold back as he tells me. An omega… The lowest of low. Blamed for every mistake, regardless of my own. Be made a fool of, turned on at every corner. Humiliated by everyone. My eyes roll away for a second before returning to meet his gaze once more.
- Since the beginning, when I started my training. I wanted only one simple thing. After the training with you, I would go to the thickets and train by myself, run among the trees to improve agility and fight alone to improve my skills. And all I ever wanted with that, was to make you proud. That’s all… - I told him. My eyes never lied - That’s all I ever wanted… Now… I am Malum… And I seek a chance to fix everything. If this is that chance… Yes…
I waited, looking into his eyes. I want that chance. I would do everything to fix my mistakes. If I must be humiliated by everyone, blamed for others’ mistakes, then so be it. I wanted Devil’s forgiveness! I admit it! I want his forgiveness! He means too much for me!
6 Years old | Lonely wolf | Forever Bluejay’s lover | --38in/170lbs--
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