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I can tell that the male before me has suffered much loss. He looks confused, lost, as if everything has been taken from him. A lot has been taken from everyone. Homes, families, parents, siblings, children. I lost my imprint, my home, friends and former alphas. Arsenic is no more but Jaidah is still around. I haven't approached her because she has changed and I'm not sure what she will do. She left Cobryn, something I thought she'd never do. She took one of their children and left. I hear that she's joined up with Ruvindra and currently holds a rank in her pack. I will leave her alone as long as she leaves Cobryn alone. I have a feeling it will only get harder later, when he wants to see his other children. He is a father first before anything and he won't stop until he sees them. I feel bad because the meteor probably took more of his children and he already lost so many. But I prided myself on having few attachments and in this right, I succeeded. Cobryn made it, my first priority. Edge did not but after the severing of our imprint, it gets easier. That day was filled with chaos and I hated the severing making it worse. I writhed on the ground but Cobryn stayed right there with me through it all. He stayed with me and so I have stayed with him. I have no imprint now and I'm happier that way. I don't want the connection anymore. I thought it was the best thing that could have happened to me, having someone to be dependent on, but it only made things worse for me, not better. Edge wasn't always there and when he wasn't, I felt physical pain, a deep throbbing in my chest. Now that pain is gone and it's like a weight being lifted off my shoulder. Of course I ached in a new way, someone else to hold onto and that's where Cobryn came in. I can depend on him. I can always depend on him. Amorak offers me a kind smile and I return it, my eyes reassuring as I can make them. He seems a little awkward around strangers but I don't mind. I'm patient enough to allow him the time to adjust. He repeats my whole title, bowing like a gentleman before royalty as his lips tug into a grin. My eyes flash with humor as he introduces himself. Near the end he grows uncertain again, his assurance growing to questions and confusion. He chuckles and looks down, growing silent and thoughtful. I lower my head some, trying to meet his eyes, my own expression gentle. An honor to meet an angel, can't say I've ever done that before. An archangel, even better. You know what it means, you just don't see it right now. It means you have a history here, a past. It means you were considered great and you can be again. Homes are gone but not the idea of a home. We have a new beginning now, a new life to start. New alliances will be forged and new enemies marked. The old don't mean nothing; they are a point to start from, to remember and learn from. I smile again, hoping this helps some. I know that Trenus didn't think kindly of Judila. Judila was never a land of perfection, but it was home. I was under Arsenic and Jaidah and Apollymi. I think it was the most peaceful when Apollymi ruled but even then it wasn't perfect. Jaidah had a thirst for war but at least she wanted to know her members. Arsenic was more distant but she was faithful. She was also considered crazy so a lot of wolves distrusted her but I trusted her faithfulness to the pack. Abraxus was none of these things. He cared only of power and bloodshed. He was more of a monster than Arsenic in my opinion and I didn't trust him one lick. He gave our land a bad repuation, the reputation of monsters and other packs believed it. Tobias lived there and I couldn't stand it. I wanted him gone but who was I but only a lowly Omega under Abraxus' rule? I stayed there for Hazard even though she had Bark to keep her safe. And then Cobryn fought Abraxus and won and we had made a new beginning when the meteor hit. Amorak speaks again and I look up, noting his apologetic grin as if he said something wrong. He muses about whether we would have met and I offer a wry smirk in return, shaking my head lightly. I don't know. Maybe, maybe not. There was a lot of wolves back then. The world seems smaller now, less of us all thrown together in one pot. Maybe we didn't really know anyone back then. Maybe we still don't know anyone. I believe that everyone holds a mask up, a mask that only drops when they're alone. |