As he waited, he reviewed her body language. With a jolting stop of his heartbeat, he found that she had been doubtful of his offering. His words had stung her and pricked her, pulling beads of blood to the surface. His lookers closed now, and his breath caught in his own lungs, waiting for the moment. For her to move forward and just touch him without second guessing herself. When her mug drew near, the kalak exhaled slowly. His pulse quickened to its normal rate, and his heart eased back into beating. The thundering in his chest cavity had quieted. She hesitated, perhaps (or else it was just him imagining things), and for a moment, the tsar cursed himself for being so abrupt. For being a fool in all aspects of the universe.
After all, how could he protect her when he could barely protect himself? His thoughts catapulted through his brain, crashing up against his skull and bouncing around—this created even more doubt than before. After what seemed to be millennia, however, she did what Axel had been wanting her to do for the whole time. She accepted. No words had been required for her. No sighs or exclamations. No deals between the two. No need for power. No want to be Queen. No yearning to rule the pack as Nix had required in her contract with the maned wolf that now stood, star struck by Pandora.
Nix. The monarch stiffened consciously at the thought of her. He would not be able to ease himself into a different relationship now that he had tied himself to the valkyrie. His blood ran through the duo’s offspring. Axel could not simply put her to rest and have no one to answer to. Emerald gazers opened slowly at the doubt that now surfaced inside of him. The anxiety had long passed on, but the reaction of chemicals had brought on an entirely new product.
All this thinking took a remarkably short amount of time to plant into his brain. Only mere seconds had passed since Pandora had pressed her flesh up against his own. Snapping back to reality, the regal nudged her dial and let a smile slip from his features. His raw features. The wall was placed back up and, with the connection established, he found himself building back up his armor. He straightened and pricked his auditory units forth, attentive to her every move. Hushed words flowed from his ivory lined jowls, causing the triangles on his crimson cheeks to move with each vibration of sound.
Pandora. How was one supposed to break this kind of news to a femme who was clearly a soul companion? Axel knew nothing of how to make words sound pretty. How to up his vocabulary and enunciate diction of different syllables. He had often times stumbled over words that a normal varg would have no problem with. Whatsoever. He knew that he needed her to stay by his side. He knew that she was meant for him—rather, that he was meant for her. Finally deciding that worthless words would only do more harm than good, the varg got right to the point. He squared his shoulders, stabilized himself on the ground and inhaled sharply. Not that that was going to do anything to help his conscious stay intact with his feelings.
I’m an Alpha. Well this was already going against his wishes. He could only hope that her pure heart would take the raven’s quotes with a grain of salt. I’ve been searching for you for a very, very long time. He reminded himself to breathe. Everything was going to turn out just fine. He danced in place again, his muscles rippling down his spinal column. How unnatural for him! Uncomfortable… out of place, uneasy…exposed. I knew as soon as I had seen you… However. a pause to take a breath and ready himself for a dialogue he did not want to speak. I have a partner… though she and I do not have any ties to one another emotionally. She is not my soulmate and I will never recognize her as such She is a figurehead. A statue of a goddess whereas you… you’re the real deal. What a fool I was... He snarled and turned in a circle before coming back to face her again. Can you tell I’m not good at this? You managed to send me off my axis with just your greeting... He stopped, sat down swiftly on his rump and slashed his plumage through the atmosphere. It’s quick. Too quick. But I’d do anything for you just to glance at me. I’d give up all my riches for you to smile in my direction. I’d give my life just to call you my own. Shaken up by his insvtability, Axel swallowed visibly. Imagine... that powerful King who rarely lost his cool... Raise your eyes, lass. Can you be brave for me? Can you be the one I've been looking for? And now it was her turn. This was a dangerous thing... But he believed in her. If she could even speak to him.... he believed in her.
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