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I do not know why I seek the solitude of the woodland this day but for some reason, this is where my paws have taken me. I have seen to the wolves of Diveen after the battle, tending to wounds on my imprint, his friend Fathom, and my son Maddox. I have made sure all is well in my home and then I decided I needed some me time. Time to think, time to get away. So much has happened in the more recent months and yet I can still go over everything that has happened to me in a lifetime like a big tragic story. All the mates that got separated from me, whether it be by death or leaving. All the children borne to me that I no longer even see, either because of distance or because for one reason or another, they want nothing to do with me. My heart aches for the closeness of family. I have something of that in Diveen. I have friends who I've known for years and I have two sons who reside there with me and still want to talk to me. And yet there are others out there, others I haven't seen in years, others I don't even know if they exist anymore. I know Nova still lives in Saw Tooth under the new alphas. She is happy with her mate Hachiko and they are planning for a family soon. I couldn't be happier for her. I know not where Faol'an and Maxestoso have wandered off to but my chest tightens when I worry for their health. Max was so strong, so brave, and she was lost to me before she could even be found. I wanted a relationship with my lost little girl so much and it was ripped from me before I could even blink. And Holo, my dear boy. He ran off after attacking his father and I haven't seen him since. I've searched for him long and hard. I looked all over Blossom but only found old traces of his scent. I found old blood at the cavern and it made my heart plummet in my chest, fearing the worst. Is my sweet curious boy dead? Will I ever be at peace and know for sure? I stop once I reach the marsh, staring out into the woodland, curious yet puzzled. Why did I come here? Nothing is here for me. My imprint, my family, my friends, all lie behind me in Diveen. Why would I want to go anywhere else? And then a small breeze tickles my face and I freeze. That scent...why is it familiar to me? My ears flick forward, my muscles stiff and wary as I venture forward slowly into the woodland. My brown eyes watch everything cautiously, unsure of what I'm going to find and yet something is pulling me onward. Suddenly a form appears before me, a large muscular male standing off by himself in the middle of the marshes. He has a silver coat and his back is turned to me so I can't see his eyes. He looks like he was handsome at some point and he doesn't look very old, probably less than ten and yet he's been through a lifetime's worth of grief. His skin is all scarred up and I can tell by the way he holds his weight that he's got a permanent limp. My heart melts for him instantly. I know there's nothing I can do for old wounds but perhaps I can offer him herbs for daily pain? I take a cautious step forward and then another, still apprehensive about what I'm going to find when he turns around. My heart is hammering in my chest for some reason, a feeling of panic rising in my throat. I don't know why I'm fluttering like this, why I'm so nervous. It's just a strange male who's been through hell. I've already found my imprint. I know Acheron is dead, plus he looks nothing like Acheron. My mate had a coat black as night. He does remind me of someone though, perhaps another mate. Faol'an perhaps? I met Faol'an once here but there's something different about his scent and he's limping on the wrong leg. Faol'an only had three legs. So why do I think of him when I see this male? Strange. I can almost taste bile in my throat but I know I have to say something. I have to know. "Excuse me, do I know you?" My voice is feather soft, a small part of me almost hoping he doesn't hear me. I'm getting a flighty feelings like I should be running right now, far far away from this place. Something's not right. What is wrong with me? |