I can sense someone near and I expect the worst almost immediately, wondering if it is a demon of Iromar come to harass me or even Tobias come to try to feast upon my hide. I momentarily curl tighter around myself as if trying to dissapear, but after a few more moments the scent registers. The thought I was hiding from my father is shameful and I hate myself for even starting to enact such a thing. I care deeply about my father, and all my family really. I uncurl myself and my coat fluffs itself out as I prepare to greet my father from this too-small den. My soft sky blue eyes flicker with a almost pup like happiness when I see him despite the raggedness that masks my body, my ears tilted slightly back but not to be mistaken for anger or aggression. I feel shameful for leaving my family. It had not been my intention to have any of them suffer over wonderment of my well being, to allow myself to become the chew toy of circumstance. Instead I think them all safer to be away from me as it seems I had become a target for Fate's darker intentions.

"I thought it was better for me to dissapear." My tones are quiet, ears flickering forward again out of their slightly backed state. The light catches upon my white coat as I fully emerge and highlight it in places it isn't tarnished and dirtied, and yet deep in my mind I think maybe my absence had been too much for my family. I had never strayed back to Diveen or even sent a message to them, I had never once sought them out as Heyel just did during my travels. I had never forgotten my father no matter how far away I traversed, in my mind I always remembered him as strong infallible Father who was fully capable of taking care of everyone and everything. It is now as I gaze at him with sky blue eyes flecked in deep violet that I realize maybe my decision to leave had been wrong.

I will always be Heyel's son no matter what anyone does to me, no matter how many years pass before my eyes and through my body, and yet if I am incapable of pulling my own weight this means nothing, because the legends will refuse to count me as anything important amongst all the others who have accomplished something, it would be as if I never existed. I have no reason not to trust my father, and as such I am having no problems with having him near my rather unfulfilling den and as such I have no problems meeting him such as this. "A lot must have happened while I was away on travels right, a lot of things I missed? I trust everyone has been safe?" My head tilts ever the slightest, sky blue eyes touched in violet almost searching. "I am sorry for being away. I just hope that my bad luck hasn't caught onto anyone else."