One….Two…..Three And her blow up came like clock scheduled for an appointment. Her words were fierce and fueled by what Lyden assumed was hurt feelings that had built up for quite a while. The entire scenario was playing over again like a broken record that kept skipping and all he could do was allow it to unfold. Fighting wasn’t something he wanted or knew how to deal with effectively so now with the tension lingering in the air and blow up from Skylar Lyden could feel his breathing become more shallow and his tail snap angrily across his hawks feeling a breeze caress his skin.

”I’ve stayed in the shadows following you around skylar! You have no idea what the hell you’re talking about, it’s all about you. Since day one” of course Lyden understood why she made it about her because she was the one dealing with pregnancy’s and child birth. Her words really hurt him like usual and the only reason he reacted the way he was now was because her constant rude ways towards him was beyond what he could handle. ”when I try to talk to you, you’re bluntly rude” Lyden paused watching her stare out across the sea and he listened to her speak of a home where she had before him.

”If you’re going to make me pay for what I did to you with accalia the rest of my life then what are you doing here? I’ve paid my dues and apologized a hundred times skylar, you cannot continue to make me pay for itwhen you act like this- it makes me think that making me is exactly what you’re intending on doing.” the truth was finally out and it made him fall silent soaking his own words in. He wondered if Skylar would take anything he was saying to heart finally and lower her guard or if she’d just continue to be angry with him and tell him how he was constantly messing up

Moving forward Lyden allowed the silence to rest between them as his breathing slowed before he turned to stare at her glazed over eyes. ”I love and appreciate everything you’ve done for me and with me, don’t ever for a second think I don’t” he wanted to step forward to show her affection but he had before and that wasn’t wanted and he wasn’t going to be the only one trying anymore. ”the truth is..” raising his blues to stare into her soft ones he now saw the hurt within them ”everything you need and deserve from me…I don’t know how to give or be. I want more than anything to be a great father to our children and be someone you want to be with me and maybe if I’m lucky have feelings for. Instead of asking for help on how to be that I hid, I was to afraid to look stupid because I thought I should already know how.” he glanced away from her now his defenses completely down. Now, if Skylar was going to strike she would have complete control. ”my past was rough and I grew up alone. Everything a mother and even father is suppose to teach their children…mine didn’t.” Lyden stepped a few steps away from her now ”I’m sorry for everything and I don’t think my excuses are valid for what I’ve been the way I have been, however it’s the truth” the question was now, was skylar going to understand? ”could you…: he looked back at her now ”could you help me be what I know I can be?”

Lyden - andalusian/saddlebred mutt - 16hh - four - Cremello Champagne Sabino [ee/Aa/CrCr/nCh/nSb] character by secret.