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I can't stop running. My head is pounding. I just watched my own mother die right before my eyes. Stupid, stupid, STUPID. I shouldn't have walked up to that wolf. I shouldn't have said something about her scars. It's my fault that mom had to protect me. It's my fault that she's dead. Viora was there, I want to say I saw her. It was all a blur. Teeth and fur was flashing and blood was everywhere. I can't go back. I don't know what to do. All I know is I saw the look my mother gave me right before she took her last breath. She saw me in my hiding spot in the bushes and she gave me a look only she can give. I know that she wants me to move on, to live my life and make sure that her death was not in vain but how can I think about that when she's dead?! I finally stop near the river to catch my breath, my sides heaving as I pant and pant. My eyes are wide and wild. I look around as if I'll find an escape here but I know that won't happen. I need to clear my head but I don't know where to begin. What do I do now that Enigma is gone? Even while I was away, she was my shining star. I knew I would come back and be the diplomat she wants me to be. She would be proud of me. And now she's gone. She's not coming back. I didn't even know the tears were coming till I looked down at the water and saw the droplets hitting the surface, making ripples. I sniff and shake my head, angry at myself for crying at a time like this. I'm supposed to be the man of the family. What kind of man cries at a time like this? Then I think of Viora and I look around. Did she see me? Did she follow me? I suddenly want to see my sister more than anything. I want to know that she's okay. If anything, she'll probably be stronger than me in this moment. I need her strength right now. Tristan.male.4 years old.son of Enigma & |