With a Crystal heart Shattered by a Forbidden love. Lost Within my own Puzzle ;;
Attack after attack, there was just no way I could keep on going could it? My mission was so simple, I only had to teach Exodus how to hunt, everything was going so well and suddenly, everything has changed. What happened to me? That wolf came out of nowhere to attack us and I had to defend Exodus. But my fighting was terrible. The other wolf managed to hurt me, to bite Exodus! My body still holds the scars of the fight. The one that gave me more trouble, the scar on my left eye. A cut drawn across it. My eye, forever closed, unable to open again. With half of my vision taken, it was much harder for me to fight.
Here, away from the pack I try to train on my own. The small plant in front of me, holding little more than a few leaves and standing not much higher than myself. A growing tree. I direct my attacks at it, showing my anger, my frustration, but each attack hard to hit. The lack of vision of an eye making me miss my target! How! Quicker, I attacked the plant. Again, missed.. Again! Got it! Again! Got it! Missed! No! How is it possible? How am I supposed to be a warrior if I cannot even hit a still target! My paw stomped on the ground and I barked in frustration before sitting down just beside the plant. My head low. Nobody must know this, nobody must know that I cannot fight. How will I reach the position I wanted without being able to even defend myself, or Exodus. A whimper leaving my muzzle.
The images of my father coming back to my head. The lightning at night as he attacked us, his jaws opening and going right for us. I shook my head and looked around. Another lie, added to my life. I cannot fight. How long will I be able to maintain that lie? Hiding the truth from my sister is one thing, now. Hiding the truth from the entire pack that I am not able to fight anymore? Everything is just falling apart. Emerald doesn’t talk to me, she says that I don’t care about her, she believes her mother gave up on her and… I just… I just don’t have any argument. I don’t know why she left again. I don’t know. I am just lost in the ruins of my life.
I lifted to my paws, turned away from the plant and started walking away slowly. Ears low, tail dragging behind me. Perhaps I should just tell Isola that I cannot anymore. I’m alone…
Sulan
Seventeen years > member of Diveen > Forever Dusk's lover
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