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Aplos Riverside
Moladion’s powerful, winding river...
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| Ailith
If Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfied. Illuminate the "No's" on their vacancy signs. |
| I don't know what I imagined myself growing up to be when I was little. It had been programmed into my brain that I was going to be a killer and nothing more, but that idea had never satisfied me. I guess, maybe I pictured myself somewhere other than the tundra, with a mate and pups of my own. But it was clear that that idea would never come to pass, and I had even thrown away the life I used to have chasing this fantasy. Granted, I had been gifted two of the most important figures in my life by leaving, but not even they could chase away the feeling of loneliness and worthlessness that ate away at me.
Eric and Natu.....were all I had. I mean, I was apart of Spirane, but I didn't have the friendship, the bond with any other but them. They were what kept me going, what kept me from slipping farther and farther into the darkness within me. They are my happiness, the family I never had growing up in a sisterhood of assassins. Yet I still can't fathom why they put so much effort into me, so much time, energy, and emotion wasted on someone like me. What have I ever done to deserve them? I wasn't worth it, yet they had yet to turn their backs on me, even in my moments of utter weakness. Eric was not the monster he thought he was. Yes, maybe he did kill and partake in....a lifestyle not normally chosen, but when I looked into him, into his eyes, I never saw a monster. I had killed without thought or care at one time, as i'm sure he has, but even the coldest of hearts still beats, and with a little time and help, it can be warmed. I think all the proof Eric needed to realize that he wasn't a monster was the fact that monsters can't love, can't feel affections. And he loved Seline, so that was proof enough that he was no monster. I mean, even the most vicious ice bear loved it cubs, so not even they could be considered monsters. Those blue eyes of his merely blink at me for a moment when I tell him he is one of the best things to happen to me, and then he shakes his head. "You don't mean that." he says, but he is so wrong. If I had never met him, I would have had an emptiness inside me, apart of me forever missing. What he didn't know, was that, not only was he apart of my soul, but apart of my heart. Natu made up the other half of it, and with both of them together....I was complete in a way. Even if I was useless and forever alone, I had them, and if they were ever taken from me, i'd follow them. Dying was nothing compared to living in a world without them. "But she does, Eric and Natu are the best things in her life. If either of them left, she wouldn't know what to do," I say, because he was, they were the best things to ever happen to me. "She'd rather live an eternity feeling like this than loose either of them," my truthful words fall out in a whisper as my blue eyes drop. They had both left footprints in my life, and I didn't really know how to convey that to them, the magnitude of my words. They changed my life the day I found her in that cave and looked into his eyes for the first time. I am pleased that they seem to get along, because if they didn't....I didn't even know how much that would tear me apart. "It is a pleasure to meet you," Natu says, filling me with the faintest feelings of happiness over all the sadness. "Likewise." he replies, earning the smallest of taps of my tail, and the smallest, but gentlest smile I could muster as I looked between them with my icy blue gaze. "Do you wish me to stay, Ailith, or would you like some time with your soul?" Natu asks, taking me completely by surprise. I turned, staring at her in shock at her offer. I didn't want her to leave, my sister couldn't do that, not now. "Don't leave on my behalf. I was the one who interrupted. I only want to know that you are okay and I will leave you be with Natu. Just know that I'm always here." Eric says, and I feel like the sadness is now overwhelming once more. My face drops as my ears fall flat and my eyes fall to the ground, unable to stop the sad expression on my face. I gently reach out with both of my paws, resting one utop Natu's and the other utop Eric's. "She...she would like it if both stayed, even if just for a little bit," I whisper, so that they both may here the pleading in my voice, the pure honesty. I just wanted to be near them, to be close to them for a little while longer. {9 years/Tied to Eric/ |
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If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks then i'll follow you into the dark. |