She didn’t know her true purpose within Asteraia, maybe in the end, she would choose somewhere else to go, should it tickle her fancy, but for now, Renai was more than content with not knowing where her life would go, at least for now. She knew that in the beginning of the new season, she would become a mother, and that her world would change in that aspect, and that meant that she had to worry about more than just herself then, and that would be a change for sure. She was determined not to be a juggernaut mother, she would not rule them with an iron fist, though, what Eden would do, she knew not.

Her life had never been an easy one, it had been a rough few years before she had made her way here. Many fights, many scars, many wounds that still ached from long past, and yet, she still felt a small flicker of humanity for the world around her. Yes, she felt the thirst for blood, but she did not go seek another life out just to kill it to fulfil her thirst for the blood of other wolves. She kept that part of herself hidden, to be honest. She planned to keep it that way. To keep her bad habits hidden away from the world, so that no one ever judged her for who she was within.

She may be a hard nut to crack on the outside, but the inside, she was a soft thing, powered by the need to welcomed. But she knew that she had to keep that part of her hidden as well, because being judged by that, it was the last thing she needed, that was for sure. Her eyes seemed to be blank voids today. Though she and Iscariot were answering and asking each other questions about somethings, she felt as if they were barely touching on the surface of who they really were, but that was fine with her. “High standards are what keep us from accepting less than what we were destined for. Do not lower them, because in time, your high standards will come useful, and it will prove worthy.”