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Posted on August 9, 2015 at 11:34:34 PM by Tristan
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What do I feel loyalty toward? I know that I stand strong with family. I would do anything to defend Viora or Solitaire, whether they asked it of me or not. I've already killed for Solitatire, though it still gives me nightmares to know I put an end to another wolf's life. Somehow that seems wrong that I did that. What right did I have to say it was his time? Sure, Solitaire says he killed our dad and that's not right. Plus he ate him! I still hope that's not true cause if so...just ew. But I still know I didn't want to kill him. I just didn't want him to hurt my brother. Is that so wrong? I don't even think about if someone will come to get revenge. Does he have family to seek vengeance for him? Will someone hunt down Solitaire and I for what we did or will his body just waste away? Solitaire doesn't know that after I ran away in a panic, I came back to bury the wolf. I figured he at least deserved that. I do feel loyalty to Glorall. It's the place of my birth, the place my mother called home. This place meant everything to Enigma. When she returned to Moladian after the meteor crash, she came here and chose to stay. She decided to have her family here. Even in the wake of Cobryn's death, she stayed here and that's of importance to me. So yes, I do feel loyal to Glorall. I hope to feel that same strong loyalty for an alpha some day though. I did like Tesseract but I was so young. I looked up to him, sure. I also liked his daughter, Octavia. She was my friend. But Tesseract is gone and I know wherever he is, he'll be okay. Eden is not a bad alpha. He is actually quite a fair one and I like him. He's straight to the point and doesn't dilly dally about what he wants. He's been good to Solitaire and look at my brother now, ranked and verything. Now I just have to start proving myself since I've been falling a little short of my goals. For wanting to be a speaker, I haven't really gotten all that much experience in it so talking to an alpha I don't really know anything about is intimidating. I don't want to cross any lines of respect by being too straight forward and I don't want to seem too nervous to even be considered for a position. I want to gain his trust and I know I've got to square up if I want to do that. I must seem more twitchy than the first time we met. At the meeting, I was straight forward and eager to start my work but then Solitaire showed up and I started getting closer to my brother, liking the bond between us. And then I killed a wolf by accident and it put me on edge. And you have all the pack challenges going on right now and that has me on edge. I don't want to keep changing alphas. For once, I'd just to like one for a while. He speaks and I prick my eyes attentively. He seems forgiving to my apologies and I'm thankful for that. My smile gets more natural as I relax a little more. Hope springs to life in my eyes when he says he sees potential in my desires. I can feel his eyes roaming over my body and my muscles spasm automatically as if a bug is crawling over them. It's not him looking that's uncomfortable so much as the thoughts that go along with it. I know what he must be thinking since it's what everyone who hears of my dreams thinks. I am built tough and strong like my father, not slender and not the looker of one who wants peace. Viora always said it was a shame that I waste all this muscle by talking of peace when I could be fighting my way to it but I think that's just an oxy moron. Aithne thought the same when she met me and taught me to defend myself. She seemed to find it quite comical that I didn't already know how to fight just because of my build. I guess I'm sort of an oxy moron myself then. As he sits back and nods, I clear my throat and take a seat as well, trying to straighten up and look ready for business. At his question, I search my thoughts, choosing my words carefully. "Well when I was a yearling, I made my desires clear to the alpha before you, Tesseract, and he started taking me to packs when he talked of alliances so I could listen in. That's where it started. When I left Moladain not long after that, I traveled a lot with gypsy packs and talked to lots of loners. I interviewed them, found out what they were looking for in a pack and what was usually lacking. Would you believe so many wolves feel like outsiders in packs they've lived their whole lives in? No personal touch. Maybe the alpha was so caught up in their own concerns that they couldn't drop back down just to have a simple conversation to find out how a pack member is feeling and how their life is going or maybe they just feel so overwhelmed in a large pack, like they're easily forgotten, expendable. Maybe they don't feel like the pack needs them and no one's there to tell them just how important they are." I shrug lightly. "Small stuff but it's a start. I guess I don't have as much experience as I'd like with group interactions but I do well one on one." I look over at him, waiting for his reaction to see if he has any more questions. Should I consider this an interview for a position. I wonder if I should have cleaned up my coat a little. I'm not filthy or anything but there is some light dusting on my coat from lying in the sand most of the day. And I probably smell like salty ocean water. Oh well, hopefully he doesn't mind. Tristan.male.7 years old.son of |
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- it doesn't exist if you can hide it behind your teeth. - By e d e n September 17, 2015 at 09:56:44 AM
.:. time to make a stand .:. - By Tristan September 21, 2015 at 01:29:12 AM
it doesn't exist if you can hide it behind your teeth. - By e d e n October 9, 2015 at 08:18:25 AM
.:. time to make a stand .:. - By Tristan October 20, 2015 at 02:23:24 AM
[x] - By Sol November 23, 2015 at 08:38:01 AM
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