My mind is in a blur with everything that's happened in the past few months. Stella was a friend of mine growing up. She taught me how to fish! And then suddenly one day she approached me angry and tried to kill me! I couldn't wrap my head around it and I never got an explanation because my best friend Bella, also known as Stella's daughter, jumped in to save me. Long story short, she ended up killing her own mother trying to defend me. While it was heroic and everything, I felt a little ashamed knowing I had to be saved by a girl.

The situation messed Bella up inside and I don't blame her for pulling away. She had to wash away her own mother's blood from her coat and then go get her younger brother, knowing she had to raise him now that his mother was gone. It was a trying time for her and I wanted to give her space. Then she called for me at Glorall and I thought perhaps she was wanting a home here and perhaps for me to share it with her? I was all for the idea!

But I woke up a few mornings ago and she was gone. No trace of her or her brother. Where did they go? Was it something I did or said? I felt sorry for myself for about two days or so before I decided to try to move on. It's hard though because I left everything I ever knew a long time ago. I grew up in Diveen since it was the pack I was born in. My mother Natalya raised me and my brother River until she grew sick and died. She never really recovered from birthing us. We only ever saw our father in passing and were never very close with him. I found him one day in the grotto but we didn't talk much and he seemed like he wanted to be left alone so I decided to leave him in peace.

My brother River vanished on me but he was always more independent anyway. I stayed in Diveen and trained for fighting with Amir and Voltaire for years but when Covet took over, I left with the other wolves. I just didn't come back when Achilles took over. I have nothing against him or anything. I don't even know him. I just no longer felt drawn to Diveen or anything it had to offer. I don't have a home anymore. Now with Bella gone too, I don't know what to do. Where should I go? I find myself on the edge of one of the crags, sitting there just trying to clear my head. I sigh and close my eyes as the breeze washes over me.
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