I don’t know entirely where I have been for the past few days. I don’t even know how it has been a few days, but I know it has been a few days. Have I been asleep? Was I sick? I had no answers, only more questions and yet there was no one that I could talk to about it. No one knew me better than I did… except perhaps Henadin but he was dead. I had had friends along the years, but they are, all of them, gone. And thus I have been left to internalize it and to try and figure out exactly what was going on. Some thoughts have crossed my mind but none made complete sense. Finally, I came to the idea that I could try to imagine exactly what Henadin would say. It was, surprisingly hard, especially considering that he hardly ever liked to talk. And so instead I acted it all out as if Henadin was still with me. Thus I talked aloud to him… the only problem was that the more I talked to him, the more I thought that I was hearing answers. Which was crazy in and of itself… but then I imagined that he started calling me crazy. I mean… I know that I am, but the fact that I am hearing him makes it all worse. And so I regret it… but I miss him so much… and so here I am. I’m walking along the shore of the lake looking for paw prints I know will never be made again, looking for a pelt of assorted colors I will never see again, and trying to work out how exactly I am hearing his voice again. But instead of Henadin’s large prints and mottled brown coat, I find smaller ones and a femme sitting on the shore. Henadin would have urged me to turn away, not wanting to trust her but instead I hear him saying to talk to her. It is my first real hint that it is not Henadin… and I don’t know whether I am relieved or saddened. I say nothing but I stand, trying to decide whether to talk to her or not.
||Kahlan|| ||Kenshin Broke my Heart|| Beta of Saw Tooth Moondown Shadows Lost Cracked Soul || ||Adult|| |