Romance is in the air...this is probably the most beautiful and scenic place in Blossom Forest. For the athletic and determined to come with their mates, for time away from pups. Only adults may come here; some of the ledges are too far apart for teens or pups to cross and some too high to scale.
IP: 75.89.31.172
Posted on July 4, 2012 at 01:49:46 AM by Misty
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I wish I could see what Raylen was thinking behind those sad blue eyes. I wish I knew what he was feeling. I wish I knew a lot of things, like why he ran in the first place. Why he didn't say good bye. Whether he even planned on coming back or if it just happened. I know my eyes have always been my weakness. No matter how strong I want to seem, I can't stop the emotions from showing through my eyes. Unless he's trying to ignore it, he'll know by now how much it hurt when he left. He may even guess how much he means to me. I don't know who Satowra was beside the former alpha female of Bright Moon. I know that she was close to Tamlin, Rio, and Raylen and then she up and left without a good bye, only to come back and then leave again, re-opening wounds that were still raw to begin with. I may not know her but I can understand the hurt Raylen felt when she left, the betrayal, the heart ripped out. The only difference is, I can't bring myself to hate him or even to be angry at him. The moment I saw him, I knew I could only feel lighter than air seeing him again. I could only....no, I can't admit to that. I can see the apologies aching in his expression, yearning to fill the space between us like a cooling breeze on a sultry summer day. Apologies are not what I want from him though. It won't ease the hurt in my heart or the pain in my eyes. The only thing that can heal those are time and knowing that he'll be here. All I want is to know that Raylen is here to stay this time and that he won't leave me again. I don't know what I'd do if he ever did. Maybe I'd be the sad one at a cliff face looking for a way to make it all stop. Next thing I know, I'm standing next to him, reaching out to touch him as if touching a ghost. The moment I feel his warm skin beneath my nose my heart seems to quiver in my chest. He's really here. He seems a bit surprised by my gesture but he doesn't move away and that's always a good thing, right? I can tell he's paying extra attention when I sigh but I'm too overcome by my relief in knowing he's really here. Instead I close my eyes, just wanting to feel him touching me, to know it's real and not just my imagination playing tricks on me. I saw Phonix many times after he left and I know that there were all illusions, just tricks of the mind, my heart telling my eyes what it wants them to see. I can't stand that with Raylen. It would be worse than never seeing him again. I start answering his questions, telling him about Bright Moon and watching his ears absorb it all in. Something flickers in his expression when I mention Ambrosia but he covers it up quickly. I guess I wasn't thinking about how he'd feel about a new Beta. Is he jealous? Is he hurt that Tamlin would replace him? I narrow my eyes, trying to read him but I'm not that skilled. He doesn't seem that concerned when I mention Rio's disappearance and something tells me he has an idea of where Rio is. Perhaps he's saw signs of him in Blossom still? I didn't really know Rio that well or much at all. The only reason I mentioned him really was because I know Raylen cares about him. He does tell me that he intends to pay Tamlin a visit. Hope flutters in my chest. Does that mean he might be coming back to Bright Moon? He grins now but it looks half hearted, like he's too exhausted to give it his all. He avoids my gaze at first before finally looking up. Finally he admits that he doesn't feel good but then he laughs and I prick my ears, wishing in this moment to hear him laugh a happy laugh some day. When I tell he that he looks tired, he answers that lack of sleep will do that. I shuffle my paws, thinking back to when nightmares of Phonix and Hunter kept me up. I hope he doesn't notice the tired circles under my eyes too. The nightmares were getting better and then Raylen disappeared and they came back with a vengence. I guess so. I mumble an agreement under my breath. I can tell that he's trying to make the mood a little brighter but I guess I'm just not feeling it right now. When he says my name, my head snaps up, eyes widening a bit at the serious tone. Me? Well, I'm.... Broken. Empty. Distrustful of anything good. Restless. In a deep depression that I can't seem to dig myself out of, no matter how hard I try. I'm fine. all those things rang in my head as I answered, hoping that it didn't sound so forced. I don't dare look directly into his eyes for fear that my own gaze will rat me out so instead I pick a point around his cheek, knowing if I didn't look at him at all, he'd definitely know my lies. |
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- OH, CAN YOU TELL I HAVEN'T SLEPT VERY WELL; - By raylen July 5, 2012 at 11:55:03 AM
heart is breaking, barely breathing - By Misty July 7, 2012 at 01:49:21 AM
OH, CAN YOU TELL I HAVEN'T SLEPT VERY WELL; - By raylen July 9, 2012 at 03:36:04 AM
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