My song ends with a happier note as he presses into me, my breath stopping dead in its tracks at the sound of his breathing, inhaling me as if I were the best smelling flower he had ever had the pleasure of scenting. My smile is bittersweet, images of Kiska flitting through my mind. Despite my dislike of their relationship, I do truly like the female, though I could never be expected to be friends with her again, I could at least be cordial to her. For his sake, all of it for his sake. I don't like hurting him, my soul aches thinking I have hurt him somehow by being so angry with him. Heyel's words leak into my mind, playing over and over again as I curl my neck around Devil's. My ears eat up his words as if they are a last meal, and I am on my last breath. "And I you, Devil." The hollow feeling I get when I am not with him is slowly going away, like someone pouring much needed water in a bone dry glass. I make a soft growling sound as I speak his name, making it purr as it falls from my lips. I am shaking, walls that I have built coming down with such a simple sentence, my emotions and body going insane with the ease I move into him, the rightness I feel with him. Fated together and doomed to fail, it is a sad way to see such a thing go, but I am strong enough to make it passed this. I only need to see him happy, and as much as it hurts to admit it, he is happiest with Kiska.

My heart may break when I see them, but my soul flies for him when I see him happy. I inhale deeply, drinking in his heavy cologne, wrinkling my nose a bit as I scent Kiska on his pelt, but I overlook it, for his sake I must over look her smell. I will not fall back to that miserable whining wretch that walked the earth like a ghost. I will not play the jealous lover, not when I know being better than that is so easily obtained. She is his heart, but...how long before the body breaks and the heart dies with it? I am his soul, forever bound to walk with him in this life and the next, for the soul lives far passed the physical death. It is my take on the wisdom Heyel gave to me. I smile, burying my muzzle deeper into the thick inky fur at his neck, loving the way he feels against me. How easy it is to slip passed the barriers of reservation, to cast away the worry of an angry mate, to feel him, to feel my heart shift its very beat to match the heavy staccato rhythm of his, to inhale and exhale in tandem with him as we embrace one another as if we had always done so. It may hurt me, but I love this male. I will want for no other so long as I live, and for the first time in my life with him, I feel as though I can handle such a thing. I am stronger, better than I was, and I will not let such a trivial thing hold me down again. How simple would it have been had I stuck by my words? To carry on in such misery, to make him miserable as well, to hurt him. To harm him was to tighten the spiritual noose around my neck, and I never wanted to think of it again.

I have strained at this bond, bucked and tried to throw it from me as if I were a rodeo bucking bronco. "Scusami, Devil, perché ero uno sciocco ed egoista. Ti ho ferire, e me stesso, e non era fiera di me. Ti amo, e ho sempre verrà. Ho bisogno che tu, tu sei la mia anima gemella, ma voglio che felici ulteriori di ogni altra cosa al mondo. Ed,se che la felicità viene da lei, allora così sia." (Forgive me, Devil, for I was a fool, and selfish. I hurt you, and myself, and it was not fair of me. I love you, and I always will. I need you, you are my soul mate, but I want you happy more than anything in the world. And, if that happiness comes from her, then so be it.) It slipped from my tongue as if I had planned them, but the truth was, they bared on my soul. They were a weight that I had to cast off, to get away, and I could not hold the old words back, they flowed out like a spigot on full blast. I pull back from the embrace, whining at the loss of contact with him, but rejoicing as I try to catch his gaze. I hope he will forgive me, I do not want to be the reason for him being unhappy anymore.

And i hold on to what got, for as long as i can
And now it's fallen apart in my hand
And it's so hard to understand
It seems like you're here with me
I just wanna see you again