She was excited about the news but also frightened this frosty winter’s day. She had never had children before but it was something she had desired dearly. She couldn’t find Enderly which made her concerned but she was ashamed she had to tell Attu what had occurred before they joined one another. She was desperately anxious this day; she didn’t want to anger him or be rejected from his presence. She had her pack but she couldn’t do this alone… she would do as best she could if she had to but she hated the thought of being alone to raise her children. Would their fathers even want them? The mere though made her sick to the stomach but it could be for more reasons than one… a reason that assured her of her new found pregnancy.

She found herself in Encora the place she had scented on Attu the most distinctly. She winced away from the mental scolding she had been giving herself. Today she had even considered running way from the decision to tell him but he deserved to know at least no matter if he rued her he may care for his children. Still the ever-present thought of being loathed made the pain of the coming spring much worse. She hadn’t visited Encora often but the memories of the burning tree still lingered in her mind; and how so many wolves came together to save the forest all lead by Attu. Surly he was destined for greatness even if it was just in her admiration of him. Still she felt safe in Encora; It reminded her so much of Tavioria. Just with more unknown scents and more persistent danger still; she was interested in how loners lived but was not sure she wanted to experience it. Perhaps she could talk with Attu about what it was like should all go smoothly in her explanation.

Soon after she began her wonderings she had managed to find Attu’s scent and it seemed to be fresh. She had only searched diligently for a short time after before laying eyes on him. Her breath caught in her throat and heart began to pound in her ears. She couldn’t help but lower head and posture making herself seem smaller before moving closer to him. “Attu… may we talk… please?” She was clearly nervous of what he would say and how she would share this news. She managed to gaze up to him and smiled briefly but as the dark thoughts returned her eyes fail away and head lower further. She would be lying to say she would refuse his warm embrace but knew it was silly to hope for such things; surly once she told him he would leave her to be alone. Much like the cold winter day sends pins into her soft exposed flesh her heart aches. Still was it wrong to desire such things? Perhaps nothing was felt by either males but maybe for her children’s sake; one would at the very least; help her be there for them. No matter the outcome she refused to fail her pups and would certainly never allow them to feel the pain she has felt for so long. She will defend them till her last breath; she was determined to be the best mother she could be, even now she loved her children more than life itself and hoped the fathers would to.