Winter had been uneventful. Impa did not remember what she did with most of her days—everything seemed so white and bland and similar. Grass was tasteless. The flavor of water was cold but not refreshing, and the big black mare walked the sides of her mountain with heavy hooves. Her tracks scuffed the old snow, cut deep tracks from her daily tour of the Peak, and for months nothing changed.
The weather had not changed on the highest reaches of the mountain top, and Impa had once more secluded herself from prospective company by retreating to the tallest accessible peak to stare out over the Crossing, which appeared to be beating back winter one slow melting snowbank at a time. Grass, green and fresh, poked through in some places as new shoots struggled valiantly up from under the snow— though from this distance, it was just random swaths of the color interrupting the endless white and gray of winter. Impa exhaled low and imagined, for a moment, that she was the Queen of this island.
“Queen of the Crossing,” she said, and flicked her ears at the sound of her own voice. It was rusty, old. Weak. She was getting rusty. Old. Weak. The black mare lifted one thick leg to test her joints —they creaked in the mornings, but she was already warmed up for the day and the motion was smooth, fluid. There was some power left in her limbs. Impa had simply lost the interest in accessing it. She had lost interest in everything.
“I wonder,” she said, then stopped. Jezibelle wasn’t here to listen to her; hadn’t been here in a year, maybe more. There was no one left. Oh, there were others on the mountain, likely all fine and dependable mares, but for Impa there was no one. She had no children (and while she had absolutely zero interest in the physical activity that would require such a product, as well as the idea of bearing and giving birth to her own foal, Impa had never been adverse to the idea of raising an orphan or foal in need— the opportunity had simply never come, unless one counted Imp, who had vanished without a word one day and would likely not be back to these Islands in Impa’s lifetime, if her niece chose to return at all), no parents, no family. No herd.
The black mare dipped her head and closed her eyes, pretending as she stared at the black behind her eyelids that she was fully blind, and not just partially visually impaired. The cold of the snow tickled the end of her nose and she snorted lightly. She was tired, and bored, and listless. And sad. Impa could not remember the last time she had not been sad.
I wonder how far I could fly, had I a pair of wings, she thought as she lifted her head and opened her eyes to look out across the island once more.
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