I was a queen once.

And sometimes it was lonely. To feel as i feel was almost like a curse. I felt as if there were another inside me, a foreign being that had experience true royalty and had merely been placed into my carcass like a parasite. But sometimes it was beautiful, such as tonight when in the quiet of the light night sky i was able to relax, away from the prying curious eyes of those who could not understand what i even could not understand. They bothered me sometimes, my skin is not as tough as a true’s queen’s should be. Forgive me, i am new at this.

The stars twinkle, speaking to each other in a song i wished so desperately to hear and sing along to. I could howl, allowing myself to fall within their beauty and sing though i do not know the words. But i did not wish to disturb them, so for tonight i would remain a spectator, basking in this moment.

Until his voice breaks through, i jump, it is a small little twitch of my body as i flick my gaze to him warily, paw lifting as i lean to the side. Even in my frightened state, i manage to look so very royal. It was so natural to be this way. “you startled me,” my light sopranos respond quietly, almost like a whisper as i allow myself to take him in. if he wanted to kill me, he would have done so when he had the element of surprise. No, he was making conversation. I thank the gods for this for i am not a fighter in the least. My heart is too gentle for such a thing as bloodshed. But i have no knights to guide my way. That is why i stay away from everyone but perhaps, that isn’t the wisest of ideas considering the dangers that lurk in the night.

“indeed it is,” i allow my gaze to switch from him back to the skies above, a soft sigh falling from my kissers. “i am elowen,” i grant him my attention and my company, giving him my title as if to give permission for him to join me. “isn’t it strange to have such beauty and yet, there lingers such a darkness?” my eyes fall from the skies to the shadows in the trees, ears falling across my delicate head in thought. “i guess it’s because there needs to be a balance…:

“speech”

elowen