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He watches me, pain in his eyes and the bad thing is that I care about that pain. Even after everything he's done, I still care about his feelings because I trained him, I was proud of him, I thought of him as an extension of my family, an adopted son. I took him in when Jaidah asked me to and I protected him and even after he's shamed me and my pack, I still care that he's hurting right now. Maybe that's the only reason I decided to hear him out. He lets me speak and he doesn't interrupt. I guess he knows that it will only make things worse. I let him explain and I remember what I heard from Heyel about that day in Trenus. I know Heyel would have no reason to lie to me. I let him pause, gathering his thoughts. I let him completely finish. I don't owe him that and yet I still want to give him that chance. Finally he finishes and I speak, shaking my head and letting a heavy sigh drip from my lips. You should have stayed away, Amir. Ruvindra is a pack wolf and Heyel protects his wolves. He could worry about her. You fueled the fire by going to her. Since you knew how important she was to Vague, you should have known that he would think you were going there to hurt her. You should hav stayed away. You acted rashly and the minute you lunged at her, you sealed your fate. You let me down, Amir. All that training, wasted. You could have done great things, Amir. You probably still could and yet you waste it all still. Suddenly I stop and roll my eyes. Wait, I'm supposed to be calling you something else. What is it...Malum? What does it even mean? Heyel asked me to call you this. I don't understand it. Why does changing your name mean anything? I raise a brow, genuinely curious about this. |