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I don't know where I belong, anymore. When Cobryn was here, I knew that I belonged with him, somehow I just knew. Jaidah had run off and she had changed. I wonder sometimes if I did this to her, if taking Cobryn from her drove her to the edge. He still wants Jaidah but he doesn't understand why she would do this, why she would run and turn the way she has. She's a different wolf, a dangerous wolf. I found the mutilated corpse of a cub a few days back, it's head completely crushed in and he smelled of her. Jaidah was a monster now. I shiver at the thought. I wonder if she stil has any of the children with her when she does these things. Cobryn kept one cub with him but what of the others? I stayed with him helped him raise the cub, which is saying something since I don't usually like cubs. I'm uncomfortable around them since I lost my own. That was a long time ago but every time I see a cub, I think of their frozen little bodies and it makes me ache all over again. The pain of that loss is still raw inside, tearing me apart from the inside out. And now Cobryn has decided to lie low for a while. I check in on him and the cub every so often. He's just not ready to get out but that's okay cause I'll keep coming back to him and he knows that. For now, though, I need some time for myself, some time to get out into the new Moladian and see what there is to see. I need to see who else survived. I venture out toward the mideastern crater, following the smell of water. I see the lake and go down to the shore, taking a drink before I sit down in the sand, wrapping my tail around me. A heavy sigh drips from my lips as I think about all that has happened. |