I know that it must have hurt Ailith when I chose Seline to be my mate. It was never my intention to hurt her. It's not in me to hurt her. I know that she accepts me, that she understands what I am and what I do. But how can I throw her into that world? How can I ask her to be with a vampire? It just seems cruel. She has a conscious. She has empathy. She could never know the faces of the wolves I kill. She would have nightmares about it and I would be responsible. What kind of imprint would that make me? A worthless one.
She is hopeless in this moment, probably thinking she'll never be good enough for anyone. That's not true and I know it with every fiber of my being. She is perfect just the way she is. Someone would be blessed to have her heart.
I can see how close they are. I can hear the whispered words as they call each other sister. Natu is an ally and I will make sure nothing hurts her as well because when I am not there, she is. I listen to Ailith's reply and it breaks my heart even more. Ailith wants to belong somewhere and I want her to more than anything. I want her to feel whole again. When she looks at me, she only looks more sad and my soul reacts accordingly. The whines continue to fall from my throat, a sound I never thought I would make. She brings this side out in me, only her.
She says my name and I close my eyes briefly, playing it over and over in my head, worshipping it like I worship everything about her. She continues to cry, reaching her nose out to mine and I breathe in her sweet perfume like it's the last time. The moment we touch, my soul rejoices. HEr words ring true but I shake my head.
"I come because I want to. I will always come to you, Ailith."
I remember well the grotto where I gutted a wolf for throwing her off a cliff. I would do it again and again just to keep saving her. Her next words are like an arrow in my heart. I whimper softly and reach out to nuzzle her cheek.
"No, that's not true. It is you who are cursed with my soul. I do not deserve you."
Natu turns her eyes on me and I can't read what it is she sees when she looks at me. My ears flick uncertainly though most of my attention remains on Ailith. I hear her whispered words to Ailith as she places her paw over hers and I smile at Ailith, a soft gentle smile.
"She's right. I'm the lucky one."
When she introduces herself, I know she's trying to be polite, probably mostly for Ailith's sake so I return the favor, meeting her gaze momentarily.
"Eric."
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əric so just bite me baby
and drink all my blood
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