Amir
”There is no victory with no loss.”
Devil hates me. Not only for what I did to Ruvindra, but also for what I did to him and the pack. But I care! I care about him and the pack, but at that time, my weakness was too great. All I did was not for revenge. Like Vague had moved on, I did too. He was doing that again, Vague used my own past against me.
I see how angry, he is and I know he has all the reasons. I am just glad to see he made it out of Moladion and that he was alright. With a long sigh and his head shakes, I can see how he still despises me for what I did.
I hear to his every word, silent. Not even telling him why I did that, would be enough. But I needed him to know. I am glad to see he still accepted to listen to me. My head lowered as I let his words sink. But I forced my head back up again to meet his gaze once more as I spoke.
- I didn’t want to hurt her. The story I told her, was the past. Vague and I met a long time ago, before I even completed four… Before you told me to move on. In that moment, when I met Vague, I could only think of revenge and in a moment of rage I threatened to kill his love. And when Jaidah attacked Vague, I saw a chance to attack, but I was blind by anger. Only then, you told me to move on. It was hard, but I did. I listened to you. I dedicated my time to Bluejay… I didn’t think of revenge. Then, Vague poisoned me. And still I didn’t think of revenge, for in that night, Bluejay finally told me that she loved me… I listened to you, Devil. After Vague was banished, I felt guilt… Because Ruvindra had nothing to do with us and with her mate’s banishment, she had been hurt. And that’s when it started. I left my den and my beloved Bluejay to go and see how Ruvindra was. I didn’t want to harm her at all. But she started pressuring me to tell her the truth. I am not a good liar… And I told her. The truth that I did threaten her in a moment of rage, in the past. And when she growled at me, I thought about Blue… All I wanted, was to be with her. I kept thinking of how Ruvindra could threaten Bluejay. And that’s what I did, for fear… I had been a coward.
I paused for a moment, looking up at Devil again.
- I had been a coward and attacked an innocent female. Only then, I realized what I did… I am sorry, Devil.
I didn’t expect him to forgive me. But I needed to tell him, that I am sorry. That I care.
7 years old | Promised to Bluejay
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