Pain. That was what her life had become. The healer in Saw Tooth, whose name Halina hardly remembered as she had been hallucinating for most of her time there, had saved her life - that was true. But she was far from healed. The damage that the poison had done to her system was irreversible, with only time as the only way to heal. Thus all of her joints were inflammed, and many of her vessels were likely leaky now. All of her skin was covered in bruises and her flesh was swollen. Each movement, no matter how minute, was a dull yet strong pain. A part of her desired to simply stay within her den and hide from the world while her body recovered. To hide from the stares of others at her abhorrent swollen body... at her wrecked leg that showed a gaping wound, the result of the necrosis that had followed. To prevent more pain than was necessarily... though even with her lying still she had pain as her full weight was on her ventrum or her side, depending on how she was lying upon the ground. But there were three things that kept her out of her den, moving through the territory slowly but steadily.
Pain - it was now a relative term. When the poison had reached her nerves, it had been like nothing she had ever experienced, a utterly complete agony that was continuous and from which there was no reprieve. In comparison, what she was now suffering was minimal, and the eboness was likely to never react to pain the same again... for nothing could ever pain her as the poison had.
Logic. The healer... yes, she now remembered, her name had been Kahlan... the healer said that movement would hasten her healing as it would increase her circulation and help clear the bruises that would form. That and bathing in cool water to decrease the inflammation that was still ongoing. This was what brought her to the cold stream in which she now entered, each paw stepping in tenderly, the cold shocking her in a refreshing manner and she purred in relief, imagining all of the inflammation seeping from her damaged flesh.
Stubborn anger. She had, in her childhood sought to hide from her peers from a sense of fear and shame. But now it was a stubborn anger. Anger that she had ever allowed Draven to live - sure, she had scarred and injured him completely, tearing part of his ear clear off. But he had come back with a vengeance and wounded not just her but Kershov as well. Luckily his body had not been as severely affected as Halina's had been and already he was already almost completely mended... but it was still Halina's fault. He had been punished already for this transgression... and would continue to be punished likely for a long while still. But she would not allow him to affect her life as he once had. She focused on the anger, rather than the pain. She focused on it rather than the fear. She focused on it until all that remained of her soul was a seething anger that kept her going and energized.
The water lapped at her pelt, and as she stood stock still, her pain ebbed away to a minimum, but then a call demanded her presence. Demanded her movement. Without a thought to her pain she turned, and she could have swore she heard herself creak. Grimacing briefly, she turned toward the center of the terra and pushed herself up the hill though her muscles protesting with each stride, until she reached the peak. There, upon the top, stood the Ice King, the brute who had dragged her to Saw tooth, his teeth marks still within her nape, thereby saving her life. Dare she say she considered him a friend? He was her lord and master... and depending upon whether the word 'friendship' could be applied to their relationship, she either owed him indefinitely and owed him her life, or owed him solely her gratitude and loyalty. The two were not separate, for she would die for him regardless, thinking him a worthy leader who could truly make a difference. But it was a thought that would require further ponderance.
Slowing, her lungs rasping harshly from the effort, she approached him, bowing briefly before sitting beside him. A oxymoronic chuckle released from her swollen maw as her dark azures peered at him. "I'm looking quite attractive today, don't I? Swollen, bruised, and dripping wet. I'll be the envy of the whole pack." Her gaze turned to the slope, waiting for others to arrive. "How is our dear friend, Draven, doing today? Resting comfortably, I assume."
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