unable to bind.mated to none.father to Eztli, Lixue, Petra, Citlalli, & Itzel.Taviora

He felt better having told her his secret about what he did. It was nice to have someone know about the true him and yet she didn't turn away from him. Sure, she didn't know how he was when he was in the act of killing someone but maybe she wouldn't ever have to know. He didn't like to show that part of him to anyone but his victims. Instead she just seemed happy to be in his company and he was having fun just being with her too. He didn't know about Amoxtli sending Levi to confront the wolves who had attacked Taviora. If he had been here, he might have said something against it, anything to protect his pack mates. He would have felt it his responsibility anyway since he knew he was the reason they came here to attack. If he knew, he would have more guilt on his shoulders. He probably would have eventually gone after Tobias and the Monster and the other too. They were killers and he knew that. He was just working up to it. He was still learning back then. He was almost relieved that they had left or died on their own without his help though. Now he had less monsters to deal with.

He liked that Tuari was coming out of her shell and becoming more like the wolf she was when he knew her before. She was getting over the grief of her imprint leaving. He wouldn't probably be protective if the guy ever did decide to show up again. He might confront him and ask after his intentions and of course threaten him if he ever tried to hurt her like that again, but would he be jealous? He wasn't sure. He knew hew as growing closer to Tuari the more they hung out but what about Talien? He was truly caught in the middle between the two females. He cared about both of them. He was a master of watching others so when her attention wavered and she started looking up at the sky more, he noticed and starting looking up too, wondering what she could be thinking. Hopefully it wasn't anything bad. He suddenly barked and flopped down beside her. He hadn't expected her to look at him at that moment though, leaves going right in her face and his eyes widened.

"Oh, sorry! You okay?"

He looked at her in concern, hoping she wasn't hurt or anything. He settled in beside her after nudging her shoulder, not noting how awkward she was right now. He asked her the question that had been bugging him and he waited patiently for her answer. Finally she nodded and he smiled. He was still so unsure about everything and he didn't want to lead anyone on. He knew he cared about Tuari but he also knew that he cared about Talien and lord knows he wouldn't be able to continue growing closer to both. He needed to make a decision and somehow someone might get hurt and he felt it was his fault. He could send Tuari watching him almost expectantly and he felt the weight of her gaze on him like a heated question about his feelings. He didn't know what to tell her. He sighed and looked back up at the sky.

"I...know that I'd like to be a father. I've just never been close enough to anyone to think that far before. Settling down, having a family. I always thought that wasn't in the cards for me...because of what I do. I didn't want to put anyone in danger, have a weakness that someone could exploit if they found out about me."

He slowly turned to look at her, his eyes soft and gentle.

"I care about you, Tuari. There's no doubt about that. We've been friends for years and I'd do anything to keep you safe. I feel like those feelings have only been growing since I've been back. I trust you with my life. I just can't begin to say I know what I want. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to give anyone mixed signals. There's a girl, Talien. We met in the free lands. We hunted together and I brought her here. She's...different. I...care about her. There's a difference in the feelings I feel for her and the feelings I feel for you but I don't quite understand them yet. I don't have a lot of experience with this kind of stuff since i've never been close to anyone before. I...don't know what to do."

He somehow felt wrong even feeling like he was asking her what to do. He squirmed in the leaves and looked back at the sky with a sigh. Now that he'd said what he was feeling, he felt so awkward.