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It would be a lie to say I haven't thought about the wolf whose trust I banished from me not long before the meteor blast. Amir. How can I not? He was more than a mere pack member. Jaidah left him for me to take care of, to train, to protect and I promised that I would do so. I trained him for a year and did just as she asked. When he came to me with his story, of how Vague murdered his family, I bid him to move past that blind revenge and find a place of peace. He didn't do as I asked though and that was his great fall. He let the vengence continue to lead him to destruction and that bid for Ruvindra's life, an innocent female and a pregnant one at that, he caused his own demise, at least to me. I was going to stay out of it because I thought Amir was mature enough to handle Vague by himself but when Vague poisoned him, I vowed to do the deed for him and rid the world of Vague. I hunted him but Vague was good at lying low. I know Ruvindra stayed in contact with him though. They created new life after his banishment from Trenus. But then Amir shows up in Trenus looking for Ruvindra but it's all a set up. He tells her the whole story of how he plans to kill her just to show Vague what it's like to lose someone you love. Good thing Vague and Heyel were there to stop him. Heyel took his honor and his name. Vague held him captive. I hear Vague doesn't want anything to do with Amir now. I wonder what that does for the shamed captive. I had just gotten to Trenus not long before the blast. I don't know Amir's fate. Perhaps he went down in the blast or maybe he made it out. Either way, I don't know what to think of him anymore. He disobeyed me but more, he disgraced and disappointed me. I respected him, liked him, would have protected him as my own son. And speak of the devil. I hear my name called by a familiar voice and my hackles rise automatically. I stiffen but turn anyway to the voice, lips tightening but something tells me Amir knows better than to attack me. I look at him, listening to his glad voice, my ears flicked back. What is he thinking? Does he think that the blast took my memory or something? He is still the wolf who shamed me and my pack with what he did. Finally he seems to remember his place, telling me that he wants to explain. I sigh, long and heavy, shaking my head slowly, my eyes weary. I meet his gaze, taking a thoughtful silence before I speak. I honestly don't think it will change anything, Amir, but if you feel you need to get it off your chest, I guess I can be charitable. You know you don't deserve even that. You don't deserve a listening ear. There is no excuse great enough for what you pulled in Trenus. Ruvindra was linked to Vague but that was no crime. She had nothing to do with what happened to your family. You let your revenge tell you what to do, who to hurt. You wanted to hurt Vague in the only way you knew how, by ridding him of Ruvindra the way he did your family. That's not honorable, that's cowardly. Pausing a moment to let my words sink in, I sigh again. By all means, explain. That's as good as it's going to get. |