Alone
Yes, that's the key word, the most awful word in the English tongue. Murder doesn't hold a candle to it and hell is only a poor synonym.
I moved silently from the borders of Asteraia, the slipping into the shadows. I melded with them perfectly as I stalked like a phantom back to the only place I had ever known: the caves. It is where i've always belonged, because it is the only place where I can be alone like I always have been. Except now I have Fjallraven, and I am not truly alone anymore. Yet even with her companionship, I still feel this need to distance myself from the others and return to the shadows. So that is what I will do.
I worry about Fjallraven, the girl who has secured something I didn't believe I had: friendship. I found her and she was starving to death, quite literally skin and bones. She is a frightened, abused little thing, and I feel this desire to protect her from the world. To look upon the scars on her back fills me with anger, an anger I have never felt before. But no longer will she have to starve or face the cruelties of this world alone. She had followed me to Asteraia and we would make sure she was safe, I would make sure she was safe. My beautiful, sweet Fjallraven.
A strange feeling washes over me as I slip into the cool shadows of the caves, my split eyes taking in the surroundings of what was once my home. I felt torn: it felt right to be here and at Asteraia, surely I could not have both. Yet I had already made my decision when I brought Fjallraven back to the rolling hills with me, so this place was no longer where I belonged truly. I could only visit here now, and you know what, that was okay with me.
Like the silent phantom I was, I disappeared into the shadows, delving deeper and deeper into the caves until visibility was low. I knew every nook and cranny of this place, so I knew exactly where I was headed. I hopped up onto a ledge located along the side of the wall. When I had made it to the top, I followed the small pathway back to the front of the cave system, to the perch I could have always been found on back when this was my home.
I laid down and simply took in the beauty the caves held, how the shadows and light danced together and how the stone twisted and broke away. Its too bad this cave had been overwhelmed by loners, they truly took away from its natural beauty and peace.